I WANT TO QUIT!
October 22nd, 2008 by Pierre | Filed under Daily Woes, He says, Pyertubs.
Hmmmmm Time to “walk the talk”… And I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror… I have a really bad vice, and that is smoking! I’ve tasted my very first stick of cigarette when I was in Grade School ( Grade VI to be exact)… My Second stick was when I was in College… It has been on and off until I enrolled in Law School where I got hooked… There’s no question about it, I’m Hooked… But I do smoke ethically (excuse? justification? nah, just hear me out), I don’t smoke in front of my Parents (they do know I smoke), When I was living with my Parents I don’t smoke inside the house… I don’t smoke in other people’s homes, unless they are smoking too… I don’t smoke when there’s a Baby or a Pregnant Woman near me.. Or when the people I’m talking to don’t smoke I don’t smoke.. I don’t really have urges.. I don’t go out in the middle of the night to light a cigarette.. Or stop what I am doing just to get a nicotine fix.. But I do smoke, theres no question about it and I’m not denying it.. I do know the ill-effects of smoking and as much as I want to QUIT, I can’t… But I think I WILL! I think I smoke because I am insecure.. I smoke just to be able to fit in with the smokers.. And I thought smoking was cool! Well it was sort of a form of REBELLION.. But I realize I’m only damaging myself.. There was a time when I didn’t smoke.. When I was in High School I didn’t smoke.. I was an athlete..(so I say) I played soccer football, but when I quit playing when I was in 2nd Year College I started picking up this bad habit.. It was occasional though.. I only smoked when I was out drinking with friends..
Present… Now I smoke at least 6-12 sticks a day.. (I think) and more when I’m out drinking.. Since wifey is away (I’m not blaming her, this is all me), I have all the time on my hands which lead me to light up.. I need to quit now! When I think I still can.. I don’t really see any benefit of continuing this bad habit.. It needs a lot of SELF-DISCIPLINE.. Which I think I don’t have.. Realizing that this is a bad habit is a step though, and when you know its bad for you there’s a tendency to shun away from it..
Let me just take it a day at a time.. Baby steps so they say.. And I just did the First Step, Realizing I don’t Need this Habit, I can Live without this Habit.. Realization I think is the first step.. The next step would be finding ways/methods to facilitate the kicking of this Habit.. Wish wifey was beside me to guide/help me through this.. I’ve heard that withdrawal symptoms include Irritability, Cough and Colds, hmm I don’t know what else..
I know I can’t do this alone! Suggestions anyone?
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I have a suggestion!
LOL
Richard has not tried this yet, though, but it’s what others suggest.. im just relaying it.
anyway,
they say if you designate a certain place as your “smoking” zone.. and you shall try to discipline urself that THAT is the only place you will smoke, then time will come that you’ll be too lazy to go to that smoking zone just to smoke. You just make sure its far.. like downstairs? outside? by the car port?
just a suggestion.
good luck!
Hmmm nice suggestion Lurch but seeing as I am not there to monitor P all day…well, I think it all boils down to his WILL to stop.
And you’re right boss. Acknowledging that it is something that you would want to stop is a step in the right direction. You know, I haven’t been harping about your vices and all because I know that if I do, I can never stop you from smoking. In all honesty, it’s only you who can make yourself quit. Of course, I will support you every step of the way.
I’m partly glad that I am not around to be the brunt of your “withdrawal symptoms” hehehehe
but yeah, I remember that you have a short temper when you can’t smoke and you don’t usually smoke when I’m around.
But yeah, we all have our so-called “comfort zones” and that is yours, just like eating is mine. We both weren’t fully satisfied during our infancy (this is according to Freud).
I don’t have any specific regimen or process.. but I’m proud to say I’m down to 4 sticks a day… Yeheeyyyyy… Hopefully I won’t be drawn back.. I’m not ashamed to admit I’m weak… I might be back to 10-15 sticks a day.. The situation aggravates the chances of me not being able to quit huhuhuhuhu
I’m proud of you boss…you know that don’t you? It doesn’t matter to me when you quit as long as it’s your decision to quit.
LOL…
well… MY process worked on two people. hehe bitaw..
seriously… good luck. i hear it is super hard, and you cannot help but go nuts when you try to quit. if z is nowhere near, it might be even harder…
gooooooooood luck!
kaya mo, kid!!